Freezing Time

I often look at Evelyn's beautiful little face, and I just want to freeze time.  I want to suspend this moment so that I can live in it forever.  I see her tiny hands, her purple feet, her gorgeous dark hair, the funny ways she moves her lips, how peaceful she looks when she is nursing, the sweet grunting and cooing sounds that she makes... and I just want to be able to live in these moments forever.  

I didn't realize how much my memory of Miles and Vivienne as newborns had faded until I held my newest baby in my arms.  I know that I will never forget these days, but I also know that your memory fades with time.  I want to burn an exact memory into my head so that I can recall just how perfect she is at this very moment - every expression and every sound and every wrinkle and crease of her skin.

I know that I will blink my eyes and my baby girl will be going to kindergarten.  I know that I will love her more each day and that I will love watching her grow and become the amazing person that I know she is destined to be.  But there is still this part of my heart that aches when I think about how this time with her as a newborn is so fleeting.  If only I could hold onto her a little while longer.